Worry

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I found out on Friday that my unemployment benefits end on December 28th. That is now less than one week away. I don’t know how I missed it. I still have some research to do to determine if this is accurate.

When I first began receiving unemployment benefits in April, the letter I received stated the benefits will remain until April 2014. In October, I was sent a letter requiring me to report to an unemployment office to show proof of my search for work. I complied and I received a letter saying the benefits were renewed. What I missed in the 2nd letter was the December 28, 2013 benefits end date. I didn’t even think to read the entire letter since my understanding was the benefits were to remain until April 2014. I probably misunderstood something along the way.

I should be in panic mode, but I am not. Part of me thinks this is the kick in the butt I need to get my Virtual Assistant business off the ground. I am getting more work, but no where near full-time. I have two strong prospects for new clients in January, but nothing is concrete at this point. I spend most of my time learning the tricks to the VA industry as well as networking, working on my website and social media presence, etc. What I need is work that will pay me money. Working on my own website, etc. will not bring in money.

I also understand that God is in control. I’ve never been in control. My focus needs to be on obeying what He wants which is what I struggle with most. I have a STRONG desire to be at home with my kids, but is it my own agenda? I know I need to earn an income and believe working as a Virtual Assistant is what makes the most sense currently. I have applied for positions with employers that allow you to work from home, but have not been offered any of the positions.

I also strongly believe our desires come from God. I’m sure it is common to second guess ourselves. I’m not ready to give up on my desire to be home with my two children. ¬†At what point do you throw in the towel?

With the benefits ending, I will have to apply for Public Aid. I’m sure people who read this will think that my responsibility is to get any job I can now. My response to that is it’s easier said then done. I can’t afford to pay a babysitter to watch my kids while I work and be able to pay rent, utilities, car payment, insurance, etc. My kids are 13 and 10. My 13 year old has proven he is not trustworthy to be home by himself on a consistent basis and my 10 year old does not like to be home alone. My 13 year old is not a bad kid, he is just one who doesn’t do what he is supposed to do when no one is looking. There is no way I would leave my 13 year old in charge of my 10 year old.

So, I keep plugging along and focus on Matthew 6:26. God knows my situation and knows what we NEED. Without my faith, I have nothing. With my faith, I have hope.

5 thoughts on “Worry

  1. Dear Michelle, you are so right! God knows your situation and what you need. It may be hard and some days you may not know if you are “coming or going” but as long as you keep on keeping the faith, He will be there for you. God bless. I’ll be praying for you and your family.

  2. Michelle, stay strong sweet friend, God does know what you need and yes He is in control. I too struggle with staying focused on obeying, especially when my platter seems to be overflowing. This past month it seems to be something more daily. Satan is being relentless on his attacks but each day with each attack through the tears even though it is difficult to obey God and His word, there is hope. Hope that rest on God’s promises. I will add you and your family to my prayers. God bless you.

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